So, Basically, Im 15.. and Have All the Reason to Just.. Die..help..?
Question by Ariah: So, basically, im 15.. and have all the reason to just.. die..help..?
Im 15. Heres some facts…
Ive been in the court system since I was 14.
I have 13 misdominors.
2 felonys.
Ive been to two treatment proograms.
Ive been to juvenile detention A LOT.
I had a councelor once.. after a while she told me that she could no longer help me, i needed more help than what she could give me.
I have severe depression.
I have severe a.d.d.
I havent passed a class since grade six.
I dropped out high school 2 months ago,
because my a.d.d. was so severe and i had no friends, couldnt focus to save my life..
My sister with two baby girls that I never get to see is addicted to pain pills, and so is her husband so i have to constantly worry about them, because my sister is slowly dying.
My brother is somewhere out there with aids, addicted to heroin.
My dad is verbally abusive.
I get angry, and i cut myself on my upper legs, or i punch walls to calm down.
i was raped once by a 34 year old man, and nothing was done about it because he fled town.
I was molested growing up as a child one of my cousins.
Never got any help for that..
so i think that since i dont have a reason to save myself…
i do whatever i want…
ive slept with multiple guys, multiple times, without protection… its an addiction.
i try to overdose myself with cough medicine for the high…
(i did a whole box of mucinex and 2 whole bottles of delsym once)
i thought i was going tot die.
My court date for my second felony is on March 18th and they told me I was probably going to be put in “Community Placement”
Whatever that is…
The only “love” ive ever had was an older guy who was very popular and cheated on me a lot, and played mind games, and was abusive.
i met a guy over the internet, got pregnant, and he didnt care. Before I got pregnant he made me think that I was the love of his life. and i thought i loved him but it was just lust.
After breaking up and finding out that i was pregnant,
i ran away to his house to tell him..
and found out that he had moved on with another girl the same day we broke up..
so i went back home and told him over the phone.
he didnt care at all.
i ended up having.. an abortion 4 days ago.
but i did it all myself. my family didnt want to help me, and he didnt help me, he barly spoke to me at all while i was going through, making the decisions and stuff.
and since the abortion he has made no effort to call me or ask me how it was or talk to me at all……..
i dont know what to do…. i really really just want to be killed.
help?
Best answer:
Answer by Danny
Wow sucks to be you.
Answer by Gemini 88 Dragon
“Becareful of damaged people, they know how to survive.” – you’ve been through a lot and all you need now, is some help to move on and get over it. Sorry to sound harsh.
If you want a complete stranger to talk to, [email protected] – we don’t know each other and I’m not judgemental 🙂